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Name: Trish
Country: United States
State: Wisconsin
Metro: Milwaukee
Birthday: 4/12/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: My personal relationship with Jesus Christ. My walk with God. Writing. Singing. Cooking. Swimming. Walking with Fields. Praying. Reading the Bible. Dancing. God's creation. Sunsets. The Cabin. Time with Fields. Time with God.
Expertise: I don't believe I'm an expert at anything, I'm simply striving to know God more fully. I'm longing to be the woman of God I've been called to be.
Occupation: Other
Industry: Real Estate
Message: message me
AIM:  pingulovesfields
Member Since:
3/1/2005
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| Here's the latest and greatest update that so few of you care to read...
I moved into a house with a friend last weekend. We have a ton to get organized and such still. We have had a few explosive arguments, so hopefully that simmers down sooner than later.
I am buried with homework this quarter. So that is keeping me from doing the "fun stuff".
I am still unemployed. Which is just as well since I'm going in for surgery tomorrow morning.
Other than that, my friends are the best.
Be well.
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| Since I have ventured to blog here on Xanga.
What can I say? Tons has changed since I last wrote here. It would probably take a massive post that no one would read to fill you all in on EVERY THING... so I feel inclined to just reflect and somewhat vent on all the stuff going in my life as of late. Take it or leave it.
God is in control even when it doesn't seem like He is. What does that mean? Well, for one, sometimes when we're surrounded by all the craziness and insanity and violence that exists within the world, its hard to see how God is in control. If the book of Revelation says nothing else clearly, it screams, God is in control of history, the present and, of course, the future. Period. That being said, even when I feel like my life is spinning out of control; when I take the reins and drive the carriage off the path; when I can't see how tomorrow could be anything but worse than today, He is there, and He knows that tomorrow may very well be worse, but the next day may be the best day of my life thus far. So when I can't see, and when I don't know, I need to just have faith and trust that He does, and that is why He is best suited for the driver's seat of my life. He is not only meant to be in control, He always is in control.
That does not mean He will stop me from doing dangerously reckless things that are self-destructive and often demolish my other relationships in the process. It means that when I surrender my life to Him and STOP to listen and wait, He is more than capable of picking me up, dusting me off, cleaning up my mess and sending me blessed and protected in Him on my way.
That being said, I am BEYOND overwhelmed with all of the changes going on in my life. Don't get me wrong, some are super exciting and liberating. But wow... Its a lot to take in.
For one, I started College, and I'm not turning back until I at least have a BS. So that's that. I wrapped up my first College Finals on Tuesday. 9 Credits down, 111 to go.
Two, I've been unemployed since 1/1/2008; and well, somehow I am not completely over my head in debt, but I am not free and clear. That being said after writing a letter, which one of the recipients has argued was actually a prayer meant for God, I received calls on not just ONE interview, but THREE for next week. Talk about a quick response. Perhaps, I should have turned this over to God or those representing Him in their lives SOONER than NOW.
Three, I am moving out of my parents house into a somewhat unique situation. None the less, I'm stoked to be getting out of here, nervous about what mayhem may come out of the next household situation and trusting that my friends, family and God will be supportive of the whole transition. All I can hope is that it all works out, and when it stops working out, that God provides a window or a door to crawl through to get out. The closing on the new house is 3/28 at 9am. So by 12pm on 3/28, I should have a new place to call "home" and by the end of the weekend I should have a somewhat useful living space.
In other news, I meet with a surgeon tomorrow about possibly having a surgery. I recognize my need for the surgery, since its my only hope of regaining full, normal, uninterrupted use of my hands. However, I am horrified of going under the knife again. I'm worried about the scar it will leave beyond. Concerned it may not be successful. Worried that the recovery will take longer than anticipated or set me back in school or even getting back to work. I know, I need to just trust the medical professionals and especially GOD for provision, protecting and every thing else that will ease the fears around this. That being said, they may do the surgery on the 18th which means I'm going to be unable to be as active in number three above.
I'll pretend that is all that is on my mind at the moment for sake of the fact that it has been a long time since I wrote here... and well, I doubt anyone will read it... and well, I have other things to do today.
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| It's almost Valentine's Day 2007. I figured I would just let you all know, I do think about you; and I even read some of your journals from time to time. Life has been a bit caotic the last few months. In a really slow, not-so-much happening outside of emotional caous sort of way. Fields, my heart is yours, it beats besides yours. Every thought that brings me bliss is of you, my beloved. Draw me ever closer to your soul; forever and ever you will abide, my darling, the love of my life, forever and always my soul mate. Happy Valentine's Day! I'd proclaim my love for you to the world; but it's confined to this small corner of it, I'm afraid. I hope you feel it, know it, just the same. ~Forever and Eternally Yours~ To the rest of you, feel free to drop by here and leave comments from time to time; maybe you'll get my attention. If you want to keep up on my "writing", the very little that I do can be found at my livejournal blog; same screen name there. Hope 2007 has already brought you blessings... I hope your Valentine's Day is consumed with the love of the ones whom you let in enough to love you. Here's to 2007, the day before and every day after the most, dreaded Valentine's Day. | | |
| Reads this anyway.
And I'm ok with that... because frankly, I'm sort of bored with constantly trying to keep up with every one's blogs. I'd rather keep in touch with people on a more deep and personal level. So the reason I'm not here or on myspace as much, except for brief lapses in time, is because I'm engaging with individuals in my life outside of the "world wide web". I know, perhaps a foreign concept. Sometimes it's easier to hide behind our sarcastic lines and our apathetic wit. To attempt to amuse others, or at least ourselves with our ramblings on this and that. Sometimes, it's easier to attempt to "challenge" others and ourselves in those deep blogs that you can't only truly tolerate every once and a while for fear that just one, let alone many, will never truly sink in the way the author actually intends.
But I'm finding that God has not called me to rant and rave about my life here; or even constantly blurt out how wonderful and magnificiant He is to me here... though I'm sure it's "nice"... it's not exactly what I feel God really desires from me. I believe He is calling me to engage in deep, meaningful relationships with other believers; to live according to His will that those in my life that do not know Him may see Him through me. I believe He's called me to surrender all of my life to Him; especially my frivilous use of the time He's given me.
So pardon my long silences, or my unexplicable absences. Don't bother pretending you care. I know there are many that will feed your need to be distracted and lulled by blogging mayhem. I may even chose to entertain you occasionally; or perhaps chistise you. Whichever my whims pull me towards.
Rest assure I'm alive and sometimes well. I'm learning to surrender daily to my King. Learning to let go. Learning to live free. And I'm currently in week two of a fifty day jubilee devotional series at Elmbrook . I'm participating in the 20-Something ministry; which has landed me in the most fascinating small group... and God is just generally moving and "disrupting" my life as I have "made" it...
Oh that I would be truly worthy of His holy interruptions.
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